So, this Xmas was...

weird. Yeah, for sure. This is the 1st year that my 'rents are separated. Now, of course this is a good thing. An Xmas without my father has long been my dream, and that was great! The best part is that he still sent me money! LOL But, things with the extended fam are very strange. First is all the weirdness about my cousin's still born. And then my grandparents seem to be mad at my mom for "leaving" my dad. Too weird. So, Xmas night was bizarre. Very uncomfortable. I am SO glad I chose to have K come here for New Years rather than meet me up there for Xmas. (BTW, he will be here in about 2 hrs!) My mom's new apartment is very nice, and with all our old furniture I was instantly comfortable there. And my mom has done a very nice job decorating. The apartment buildings aren't the best, but I think its the inside that matters, ya know? I did feel kinda bad that my apartment is nicer. I mean, I have a laundry room, and the buildings are newer, and I live on the 1st floor. But, still this is her 1st place on her own, and I think its great. My mom, however, is not totally comfortable yet. She wont even walk around barefoot yet. It's very strange - like she feels like its a hotel. But, anyway, I guess the whole thing could have gone much worse. Overall there were no big dramas. My dad told my sister that he would like to see me - no thanks. I thought about going over there and telling him exactly what I think of him, but I held back. I'll take his money though, no question. I've earned it. He then sent me a text message the day I was leaving, telling me to have a good new yrs and a safe trip "love dad." Whatever. I didn't answer. K says no answer is better than a "Fuck You" so I held back. Seeing his name on my phone always makes me a little bit sick inside, ya know?

Anyway, there was one kinda funny story. Every year my gramma gives everyone boxes of sponge candy (If you don't know what that is, google it, I think it's a northern thing). So, this year she gave me & my sister ours on Xmas eve. Apparently, after we left, she got a hankering for some candy of her own. So, she opened up my uncle's box, took a piece, and then taped the box back up. Well, when she bit into the candy she found it to be stale. So on Xmas night, she corners my sis and I and tells us this story and asks us if ours was okay. It was fine. But the best part is that....she gave my uncle the candy anyway! Well, she had to. If she told him it was stale he would know she tasted it! And if he didn't get any, he would be suspicious, because everyone always gets some! So, my uncle had put out the box of stale sponge candy on the dessert table! LOL My sister and I thought this was all pretty funny....my mom just thinks my gramma is a crazy old bitch! Either way, at least I got me some quality candy all to myself! Yum!!

Jesus Hates Walmart

So, anyone who knows me, knows that I love W-lmart. I know, as a liberal I'm supposed to hate them...but I don't care. W-lmart is a big business, they want to make money. Yes, its nice when big businesses do nice things for the little people, but that is not what they are made for. If you are mad at all the ways that W-lmart increases their profit margin, then be mad at the government that lets them do it. Lobby them. Otherwise, you are asking W-lmart to compete under restraints that don't exist, which is just ridiculous. But anyway....the point of this is not a rant about W-lmart. My point is this, I am now even MORE secure in my love for W-lmart after a commercial I saw this morning.....it was a commercial made by some faction of the Christian-right bashing the evil practices of W-lmart. The guy informed us that W-lmart violates god's principles, and yes, he actually said

"What would Jesus do? He wouldn't shop at W-lmart."

HAHAHAHA!!!! I can't stop laughing at this! It made me want to put on my upside down cross and march my happy ass right into W-lmart and spend oodles of money!!! Seriously, anytime the Jesus people are pissed at me, I know I'm doing the right thing. ;-) Thank you, creepy Jesus guy standing in front of a green screen. You are my holiday miracle.

The Value of Life

I know I've written about this before....but it's come up again. And I just have to say these things.

1. When a crack head gets eaten by an alligator, I don't care. He was a crack head, he was smoking crack, and shit happens when you smoke crack. Sometimes you wander into a swamp and get attacked by an alligator. Sometimes you lose an arm or a leg, you may even die. That's called Darwinian selection. I have no sympathy. And nobody should jump in & wrestle the alligator to save his stupid ass. Society will do just fine with one less crack head. I just hope the alligator doesn't choke on the glass pipe in his pocket.

2. When people go out in the middle of winter and climb mountains that they have been warned to stay off of and then get lost, I don't care. Nobody should have to go rescue them. They knew what they were doing was dangerous and stupid. Nobody made them do it, nobody was even paying them to do it. Why do innocent, less stupid people have to risk their lives to save these people? You take the risk, you suffer the consequences. You were warned. You are adults. You can read. Society should not have to pay for your stupidity. Again, Darwin. The end.

I know, these people have families who love them, etc. But if you love your family then you take care of yourself so you can be there for your family. You don't smoke crack. You don't do stupid risky shit for no apparent reason. And if you do, you suffer the consequences. And, as much as it sucks, so does your family. But why do other people's families have to suffer? Why do their loved ones have to risk their lives to go out and save your sorry ass? We need rescuers to save victims...not to save dumb asses. We need them to save people hit by drunk drivers, to help the sick, children and the elderly. To help in disasters. We should not be wasting our human resources saving people who put themselves in harm's way for fun.

So if I have to hear about those morons in Oregon for ONE MORE DAY on the morning news shows, I think I may become violent. I know this wasn't the cheeriest post....but seriously, I'm about to lose my mind with this crap!

Secrets

I just found my favorite postsecret ever: "It's not PMS, I'm just crazy."

Me too.

Lights In The Sky

I saw the shuttle launch tonite. It was pretty cool. I drove out to the Indian River. It felt like 4th of July (except FREEZING!!!!) because everyone was on the lawn, lined up, on blankets & with folding chairs, with snacks and stuff. Cars were parked up & down the road for miles. Everyone looking up at the sky. Literally, hundreds of people. I paid $10 to park right at the corner of Route 50 and Route 1 and walked across the street to stand on the riverbank.

With about 3 minutes to go I could see like sparks sort or emanating from the launch spot. But when the shuttle launched it lit up the WHOLE sky like it was daytime. There was a lot of smoke and all. The cool thing was how long it took the sound from the launchpad to get out to us. The shuttle was already way up in the sky when we heard the rumble. Very cool. After the brightness faded, all you see is what looks like a huge glow stick floating up into the sky. Then, I guess the rockets come off and start to fall back to earth. It was definitely cool, and I'm glad I got to see it once. But I don't think I'd do it again unless I was taking someone with me who had never seen it before, ya know?

The best surprise of the night was on the way home, I could see the fireworks going off at the theme parks...it was so perfect, ya know? I could see two distinct shows. But from so far away I dont know which parks they were from....but it was still beautiful.

So, I'm pretty proud of myself for going out there tonite. And I'm pretty tired now, so I am going to bed. Goodnite.

Feet

I always thought that I had normal size feet for my body size. I've always worn a 7 1/2 or 8, and that always seemed normal to me. When I was 17, my boss said I had big feet - like it was something I should have known - and I was shocked. So I obsessed about it for a few months, but got over it when most of my friends told me he was crazy. But in the last few weeks I've been noticing more and more that my feet are incredibly ugly! It's true...they are not only too long, but they are wide, and FAT! Like they are oozing out all over the place! It is just grotesque! How do I lose weight in my feet? Will someone please tell me that? And, in addition to my feet, I am also not too happy with my calves...but they looked pretty good today in pantyhose, so maybe its only when I have no shoes on and my feet are oozing all over the place that my calves look fat. I dunno. But I just needed to vent about this cuz it is the MOST ridiculous thing EVER!!!! But seriously, if u can tell me how to trim up my feet, I'd appreciate it.

Too Cute

Sometimes K does the cutest things. Like the other night he freaked out cuz I put a picture of him online and he didn't like it, and he was all self-concious and stuff. And last night he was kind of moody, just from being tired, so we got off the phone and I was talking to a friend for a while, and then he calls and in this teeny tiny little voice tells me he's sorry and he loves me and to take my time calling him back. And this weekend we were talking about New Year's Eve. He's coming here for the weekend (hopefully) and I've been really stressed about what we should do. I don't want him to be bored. I know that normally he would be drinking with his friends, and as adorable as I am, I'm probably not as fun as that. So here's (roughly) the conversation:

K: Baby, I will be totally happy at home; just you, me and the TV
CJ: Yeah, with me being optional, right?
K: NO! The TV is optional.
CJ:Okay.
K: We will get some lobster tails and some shrimp and sparkling grape juice, and watch the ball drop on TV. That's all I want.
CJ: No, you can have real alcohol...I will buy you some beer or something.
K: Nope. No alcohol in my Baby's house.
CJ: You don't have to give up everything.
K: I would. Only for you, because I love you.

How cute is he? Sparkling grape juice? I love it! And then today, he called me like 4 times just to tell me he loves me. So fabulous.

I just wish he'd stop asking me what I want for Xmas!!!! ;-)

Reviewing the Predictions

Here is my 2006 Astrology Prediction for 2006 from Yahoo:

Pisces

One of the things that matters most to you is keeping your promises. That will go double in early 2006, as a friend will undoubtedly rely on you for something quite important. You've reassured them for months now that they have nothing to worry about, but as soon as the year begins, you'll have a chance to prove that your word truly is your bond.

Hmmm...I'm not sure if anything like this happened early in the year. I'm always big on keeping my word, but I can't think of anything specific that I did this year. Except maybe that I flew Mike & Rita down to visit in Feb like I promised...but that wasn't such a big deal....

At the same time -- and straight through mid-March -- you'll also find that several high-ranking, influential coworkers and authority figures will be looking to you to follow through on your word. They may even need a bit more of a commitment from you. Not to worry though. The heavens will be more than happy to help you keep on task, and you'll be rewarded for your honesty, integrity and hard work in a very big way. Sit tight, do everything exactly as you know you should and prepare to experience a wonderful feeling: well-earned, justified pride in yourself.

Well, I definitely was quite busy early on with work at my internship and school. I had that appeal that I did at work, which was pretty important. And, I got the best grades I've had since 1st year, so it did pay off!

Obviously, after all that hard work and discipline, you'll be more than ready to have some serious fun -- and the universe has some of that in mind for you too. You'll have all kinds of chances to do some long-distance traveling this year, and if there's any way at all that you can make a reality of one of those trips, don't pass it up. You've probably been itching either to go home for a visit or to return to a place you've always loved. Do it now, and take your favorite travel buddy along. (Just be sure to carry everything you need right on your person, in case of luggage delays or other annoyances.)

Well, this is certainly true! I've done more travelling this year than any other year! Athens, Orlando, Charlotte, Atlanta, Ft. Lauderdale, Tampa, Daytona, NYC, and Buffalo in a few weeks!

If you feel like a relationship is changing -- and not for the worse, so don't worry -- you could well be 100 percent right. Things between you and a certain someone will deepen considerably by the end of the year, if not before. If you don't already have someone in mind, a family member may introduce you to a potential sweetie -- someone they've been telling you is 'just perfect' for you -- around the end of July. You may have to put up with an I-told-you-so after a few weeks, but if things are going along that well, grin and bear it. It will be well worth it when you take a look around you by New Year's and realize that you've got everything you could possibly wish for!

Well, this is definitely true! Except for the family member and July parts. But K and I have definitely only been strengthening our relationship and it's getting better everyday! Plus, he will be coming down here for New Year's so we can start the year off together! So I think I will have everything I want! ;-)