Monday, February 27, 2006

Monday

This was the 1st Monday ALL semester that it didn't rain!!! I was so happy! It was bright and sunny, a little cold, but still a lovely day!

I went out to lunch, got caught up on some homework, watched my soap, and spent an hour and a half on the phone with Megan. It was just a really great and relaxing day.

It's unusual to have such a good Monday! I hope it keeps going the rest of the week!

Hope you guys had a great day too!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Soul Mates

BM. I love him. Seriously, more than any other boy I've ever known in my life. But man, does he drive me nuts or what??? Last night we spent 2 hours on the phone, which really isn't unusual for us. We used to do that every weekend...but after 8 years "together" and with my busy law school schedule...we've cut it down to maybe once every other weekend, and we tend to keep to closer to one hour than two (or 3 or 4!).

The 1st part of the conversation was typical: My parents. They are always entertaining. And he really likes to keep on top of the drama. Then I spent about 20 minutes begging him to come to my graduation and keep me safe from them....he laughed at me. Bastard.

Then we moved on to current events. Cheney's got a gun, crazy fag-haters protesting soldier's funerals, crazy fag-haters also hating sweden, the marriage of neo-nazis and KKK in Ohio, trailer trash in the south proudly displaying confederate flags, and how we are going to hell.

Then, it got ugly: the girlfriend. No, I'm kidding...it didn't get ugly. I mean, I seriously have NO problem with his g/f. However, if she were my friend I would slap her and tell her to dump him & move on....she is a bit naive if you ask me....but other than that, I have no problem with her. But I worry that he just doesn't get it, at all. This is really his 1st long term relationship....and it's long distance! They've been together for over a year now (maybe even 2? Dont ask him, he's not counting). He's been living in NC since late August and in that time he has flown to visit her twice & she has come to visit him once....to me that is pretty significant!

Now, I get that neither of them really have much else to do, and that it might simply be that he can't go any longer without sex....but still, I think it probably means something. I mean, he could just be sleeping with someone local, right? It's not like he has trouble picking up women. After all, he is BM....he's practically famous, right? LOL But really, with his preference for white chicks, it's pretty easy to find some hot girl with low self-esteem who would LOVE to use him to freak out her parents....especially now that he lives in the South! But he hasn't done that yet, he's been faithful. Which is good.

But he doesn't love her. He hasn't said it, to her or me. He says he's not ready to go there yet. Now, of course he loves me, I know that & he says it everytime we talk...including when the g/f is there. We both know that it is a totally different situation, and that it has no bearing on his relationship with her....but does she know that? I told him, it probably really hurts her to hear him say that to me. He says "Well, she's never said she loves me either." Duh! She's freakin' terrified that you won't say it back! Moron. She totally loooooooves him! She's a girl. A girl does not date a boy for well over a year & keep it up long distance if she doesn't love him. Trust me.

And of course, there's the marriage issue. I tell him, she wants to marry him, she's thought about their wedding day, what she will name their kids, where they will live, etc. That's how girls work. Girls who want to get married are dating to find the guy they will marry, it just makes sense! If she didn't think she could marry him, she wouldn't be wasting her time. But he doesn't believe me. "Trust me, she's not thinking about things like that." Whatever dude, you are sooooo clueless. And then, I find out this: Her younger sister is getting married in 2 months! So I say "And you're going to the wedding?" And he says....wait for it...."No!!! I'm not stupid!" OMG. So clearly he does know that she has her eyes set on marriage, or there would be nothing to worry about. I said, "If my sis was getting married you'd come to the wedding." He says "That's different." Yeah, I'm sure his g/f would understand....NOT!

He is just SO in denial about this girl. And my only fear is that he is wasting her time, ya know? I told him, if you don't love her you need to let her go. It will break her heart, but better now than in 3 years or whatever. Right?

At around 7 o'clock he tells me she is waiting for him to call her, so I told him to go call her! He says that the basketball game is starting, he wants to watch the game. He says "I always do that to her. I call her & say 'Yeah, um, can we talk later tho? The game is on.'" So I remind him that in 8 years, he has NEVER said that to me. Have I managed to NEVER call him during a game? He says "No. But it's different with you." We talked for another hour. So much for the game, huh?

I guess he's right. It is different with me. He loves me. He doesn't love her. I believe that was my point. Grrrrrrrrrr.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Awake

Today was an unbelievable day. I haven't done an ounce of homework. If I could do one of those "locked" type friends-only things that they do on live journal, I would write all about it, but I can't...so oh well.

I will say this tho...I am really so glad to have all of you in my life. "You" being the people that I know read this regularly...or irregularly, whatever. And I wonder sometimes how or why you put up with me. I can be the most ridiculous person, can't I? My ego couldn't be any bigger if it was on steroids. I am sarcastic, cynical, loud, petty, and immature. Actually, I remember that for one of my birthdays (probably my 16th) 2 of my friends gave me the same keychain, it was green and it said something like "I'm lazy, immature, obnoxious, and loud....but I'm fun!" How true is that? Well, maybe not the lazy part...and maybe not the fun part anymore!! Haha! And I mean, not that I'm offended...simply that I realize that putting up with me could be a challenge. And I really appreciate that all of you make the effort. And I hope you know that.

And I hope you know that when I say you are always welcome in my home, I really mean it. That any of you, my friends, can show up at my door anytime day or night, and I will let you in with no questions asked. And I hope that you know that your happiness, health, and safety are more important to me than even our friendship...and that if I think I can do something that might help you I will do it, even if I think it could mean losing you. So you don't have to worry that I won't say what I mean or that I say things behind your back...because I always want you to know the truth no matter what the consequences are. I don't do the "fake" thing. I am me, 100% all the time. Our friendship is not an act, and if I ever lose it, I will feel it & it will matter. And if we lose touch, it will never be too late to call me again. Never feel like it's been too long to go back...because waiting longer never fixes anything. I believe that family is who you choose to love, who you choose to bring into your life...not who you are born to. And you are my family, you know who you are. And you can never wear out your welcome. And I will never forget how lucky I am to have each of you.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Women. Can't live with 'em, please pass the beer nuts.

So, most of you know that I love Dr. Phil. I don't care what any of you say, Dr. Phil saved my life 7 years ago, and that is that. I love him. Texas-isms and all.

Today I got to watch a few minutes of his show, which he lovingly subtitled "Bitchfest 2006." His last guest (or at least the last guest that I saw) was a women who says that she is a raging bitch because men make her that way. She said she tries to be nice, but all the men she dates treat her like crap, and so she is forced to be a bitch. So, why did she come on Dr Phil? Because she wants to find a man! WTF??????????????

I am SO sick of women who say that all men suck, that they cheat & lie & abuse them, etc. but then STILL want to live with one!!!! If all men suck, then who needs one?

So Dr Phil told her that there is a difference between being assertive & agressive. This is true. He told her that she can be assertive & take no crap from men, without being mean. This is also true. He finally told her that a major problem for couples is how they fight. Couples that resort to name-calling and personal attacks to settle disagreements are at the highest risk of failure in their relationships. That you can disagree with somebody without telling them they are a complete loser. Her response?

"They all are complete losers."

Then why do you want to date them??????

Seriously, I just don't understand. And she is not the only woman I've ever heard this from. All men suck, but my life won't be complete until I have one of my very own.

Now, generally, I am not a big fan of men. I do know that they aren't all complete assholes, but I do truly believe that men & women do not make good companions. That is a whole other blog entry though. BUT at least I don't say that and then go looking for a guy! I'm not like cruisin' the singles websites tryin' to find me some incompatible sucker to snag and make my own! So what is up with this bitch?

Not that I expect you to answer me. The answer is that women can just be ridiculous, stupid, and crazy! But, I just wanted to vent.

BTW, the title to this entry is a line from Cheers. I think Norm said it.

New Discovery!

First came Walmart. Then came SUPER Walmart. Now comes....Mini Walmart!!!


This could be my new grocery store in Orlando!!! How excited am I??? There are no words.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

My Favorite Things

So now that I am back to getting my period, after an 8 year hiatus, I am also back to having cravings! This is not so good in partnership with my attempt to get rid of my extra chin! BUT, never fear!! I have found a solution!

www.nopudge.com

These are the BEST brownies ever!! I mean, I think they are honestly better than any other mix out there, and they are fat free! I first made them about a year ago, but had totally forgot about them until an almost terminal chocolate craving last week! So, I went out & bought them again. And, in addition to being fat free, I swear you lose a pound just by making them because the batter gets SO thick it is like impossible to stir! But that's okay, it is totally worth it. So, you should all go out & buy this mix & try it, so that the company does well and keeps making the mix & I can live off it for the rest of my life!

I warn you that the 1st time you make them, you will start stirring (all you do is add fat free yogurt to the mix) and you will think you've done something wrong. It just doesn't appear to be mixing at all...but after a few minutes it all comes together! And when you think your arm is about to fall off - you are done! Just try not to eat all the batter before you bake it! LOL

Yeah, so that's my plug for today. Goodnight!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Out Of Town

Hey everyone! I just want u all to know that I am still alive. I have been in Florida all week looking for a new apartment! It's been very much fun! I don't have anything for certain because it's too early for the apartment people to know what they will have available in May...but I put my name on the waiting list at 5 places, so hopefully I will hear back from them soon! All of the places are very pretty, but kind of expensive, but oh well! I'm a grown up now! The one thing that seems to be certain is that wherever I live, it will either be yellow or green! LOL Anyway...I will write something more substantive when I get back to Georgia...but for now, let's just say I am on a total natural high! I love my new town so much! And I love my Judge & his staff! I am very excited!

Friday, February 10, 2006

Right & Wrong

In the last couple of days the topic of capital punishment has come up a few times, so I figured it was time to write about it.

I am not a person who believes in moral absolutes. Some people say "Killing is wrong, period." I completely disagree. There are some people who deserve to die, and there are sometimes when we have the right to kill. I don't necessarily mean in a legal sense (though that is true as well), but I mean in a moral sense. And I think that deep down, most people would agree with me. I don't think I know anyone who hears a story about a mother who kills a man for molesting her daughter and thinks "That woman was just wrong." or "She is going to hell." We identify with that woman, we understand why she did it, and most of us say we would have done the same thing...if we had the courage. Now sure, some of us realize that it may not have been the best decision, because she might go to jail now and then her daughter will have to grow up with out her, etc. But we don't think she was wrong. And if she does go to jail, we'll be pissed. But if the child molester had killed the little girl, or even her mom, it would be a whole different story. And that's your proof: no moral absolutes.

But that doesn't mean that capital punishment is right....or does it? Personally my answer is yes, if you're sure you're killing the right person. And therein lies the problem. In most cases, we don't know. Sometimes we do, for example: Ted Bundy. Other times we don't. We know we've convicted the wrong people hundreds of time, we can't be sure we didn't execute any of them. But, as most of you know, my objections to capital punishment are not moral, they are procedural and economical.

We discussed the death penalty in class the other day. The thing I found most interesting is that all the examples of heinous crimes worth of execution that the students gave were what we would call "blue collar crimes." That's another problem I have. What about white collar criminals? If we're going to execute people, we should start with the rich white men (we certainly have a few to spare). When a corporation poisons an entire town by dumping chemicals and kids die of leukemia, their CEO should be charged with murder and he should be executed.

So, that's my two cents for now...there would be more, but I'm hungry!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

This Space Intentionally Left Blank

I know I want to write. I'm in the mood to write. But I don't know what to write. I'm thinking about too many things, and I'm pretty damn tired. I'm going to Florida on Sunday to start looking for apartments! This is very exciting for me, but also making me a bit scared. They just had a party at our law school celebrating 75 days until graduation. That means it is now less than 75 days until graduation. That simply can't be right...but I'm too lazy to count.

I do know for sure that it is 5 days until E's Birthday and I stil haven't bought her a gift! Which is bad because I need to give it to her before I leave for Florida...and I want it to be something good and something that I know she will like, which is why I haven't decided on anything yet. Not for lack of shopping though....

That being said, it is a month & 5 days from MY birthday, and this year I am buying myself a bar review course! Exciting!!! LOL I'm sure I will treat myself to something more luxurious as well, because if there is anything I'm good at it's treating myself!

Well, that's all the nothing I will ramble about for now. Hopefully I will be more inspired tomorrow! I'm sure you all second that hope....

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Almost Famous

I just thought I would let you all know that tomorrow, Feb 8th, one of my sister's friends will be Law & Order! Allegedly, he finds the body....which is very cool! I was proud that he wasn't the body!

Oh! Also, my boss' sister just got the lead role in Chorus Line which will be opening on Broadway in the near future! New York City just lost a waitress!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Rainy Monday

Yuck! It has rained every Monday for at least the last three weeks! And 4 weeks ago it rained on Tuesday, which still countz cuzz we had that Monday off!!! I know this because I have yet to go to my Monday night class in dry clothes this semester!! I am getting a little bit sick of this, can you tell???

Anyhoo, just thought I would let y'all know that R & HM have gone back home after visiting me this weekend. We had a GREAT weekend and we all wish that they could have stayed forever! In fact, I cried the whole way home from the airport & within an hour of her plane landing, R called me & she was crying too. I just love them to death, and it was so nice to know that they were safe & sound & happy here with me, rather than back home where they are sad and stressed out all the time. It was so cute because they were so excited with like everything they got to see, and I really think they appreciated coming to a new place and seeing new sights, etc. It's funny to see what other people notice about your town when they come to visit. Like, they were SO surprised by the number of Waffle Houses, which we totally don't even notice anymore. And they thought we had just the greatest billboards, which I admit I never really noticed at all. I think our favorite one was:

You think it's hot now, just keep using my name in vain.
~ God
Haha!! I have to wonder, isn't it like heresy or something to falsely attribute quotes to God?? Well, whatever. They also loved Steak 'n' Shake, which is great because I love it too! R was a TERRIBLE Hindu this weekend, she had 4 hamburgers in 5 days!!! Haha! Oh well, at least she had a good time! We took tons of pics, so when I load them onto Ofoto, I will be happy to share them with anyone who cares to see them. A bunch of them are on R's camera too (all the ones that I am in especially), so those won't be on Ofoto for a while...which is too bad because I am DAMN sexy! But I will get them up eventually. The most impressive thing to be noted is the RIDICULOUS rate at which HM's hair grows! He was like bald when he got here on Wednesday and by yesterday it had grown like 5 inches! I told him I want to turn him into a science experiment: shave his entire body and watch him grow like a chia pet!! LOL
So, that's all. It was a great weekend, and with them leaving & the rain & it being Monday....today pretty much sucks. Hopefully there will be good stuff on TV tonight to make me feel better!!