2009ish

Before you ask, no I do not have plans for new year's eve. K will probably be here, and we will probably sit on the couch and watch a movie...is that a plan? That's as close as we get.

I never really do anything for new year's eve, and never really make any special plans. In my whole life I really have only had 2 new year's eves that are memorable for good reasons.

The first was the 94/95 crossover. I was only 14 so I was at home. But I was dating Adam then, and he came over to my house to watch the ball drop. We sat in the living room and watched the ball drop on TV and slow danced to a Boyz 2 Men song. The room was dark except for the xmas tree lights and we were alone. It was all cute and romantic and stuff. I loved it. Of course, he broke up with me like 3 days later so the romance was short lived.

The other one was 99/00. I spent that one with my boyz at a few different clubs in downtown buffalo. It wasn't anything too special, but we were all just so happy and so close and it was just a really great vibe. It's probably the most fun I have ever had going clubbing too. Everything was just very chill, and it wasn't snowing or anything. Nobody was fighting or sick or in trouble. It was just a perfect night. Of course, later that year one of "my boyz" raped me and totalled my car. Oh well, nothing's perfect I guess.

This will be my 3rd New Year's with K. The first year we went out for ice cream and K didn't take a lactaid pill, so he was sick the rest of the night. The next year K put $600 in an ATM and it ate the money and wouldn't give him a receipt. So that was no fun either. Hopefully, this year will be better!

Anyway, I hope that if any of you have plans they go well!! Have a great new year's!!

The Night Before the Night Before

Well, it's almost xmas. Things are pretty good. I am allowing myself two long weekends for the holidays. This one will be in buffalo with my mom and sister. Next weekend will be here at home, hopefully with K. I'm looking forward to seeing my mom's new house. Also, my best friend, R, got engaged and I can't wait to see her ring!! I am really happy for her, because I think she really has a good guy and that they have done this right. She wants to get married in June, and it is going to be HUGE so she has a lot of work ahead of her!! I just hope the wedding is more fun than stressful for her, but I highly doubt that will happen!!

So, anyway, I hope you all have a great couple of weeks! Be careful and have fun!!!!

So much...

It has been a crazy couple of weeks. Last weekend was awful. K got here friday night and I was so happy to have him here, work had been very stressful all week and all I wanted to do was lie on the couch with him and just relax. No dice. My boss called me on my way home friday night and told me I would be working all weekend - and he meant it. All night friday and eleven hours each on saturday and sunday. Not only did that mean no quality time with K, it also meant that my boss would be sending me nasty emails all weekend. By noon on sunday I felt like I was on the verge of being fired. I cried so much last sunday, and K was so sweet to take care of me. He was really wonderful all weekend. This past week wasn't too bad actually. I really laid it all out for my boss and said that he really needs to decide whether he thinks I'm awesome or terrible. I can't live with the back-and-forth crap and the fear of being fired all the time. Since then it's been better. Really, he wasn't mean to me at all this week. So that was nice.

Yesterday, though, was a great day. I got to take on my very first pro bono case - and it could NOT be more perfect for me. I will be suing cops for shooting a 19 year-old kid in the back. THIS is what I am meant to do, and I can't wait to kick some pig's ass. I know this will be a hard case. It's in the Florida panhandle, which s basically southern Alabama. They hate black kids and love cops. Plus, the state of the law is such that proving excessive force is next to impossible. But I am gonna try damn hard, and I am going to love it.

Yeah, so I guess I'm a little lonely...

I just got an email from one of my friends in Orlando, and it made me cry. It wasn't even a sappy email, I just miss her so much.

I know I felt this way when I moved to Orlando from Athens too. And, obviously, I made some wonderful friends eventually. The same friends that I am missing now.

Unfortunately, I think this time it will be harder to make friends. In Orlando at least I had a "class of clerks" that I was part of. Here, I am the only one in my class. Plus, there is just not a lot of free time to do fun things like Bachelor Nights or big lunches or even happy hours.

I am trying though. On Friday I am going to lunch with a girl named Lauren who works at another firm in my building. I met her in september at a continuing education class I took. She is really nice, although she seems a little, um, milder than me. Although, who isn't - right? So, anyway, she may become a friend.

But still, I miss Orlando so much it hurts sometimes. Not just the people, but even the places. I just miss it all.

On The Prowl

My mom is closing on her new house on tuesday. And now I get to start looking for mine! It's kinda fun, mostly because I am not in a hurry. Ideally, I'd like to have a house by September of 09, so I don't have to renew my lease. But I could wait until December if I have to.

So anyway, my sister is helping me look and so is K. I've decided that I can afford to be picky, so if I see something about a house I don't like, I move on. I definitely want a garage, and I would like a Florida room. A pool is not required, but if there is one it has to be screened in. I prefer dark kitchens - black appliances, dark wood, dark countertops. At least 3 bedrooms - one for K, one for me and a guest room. At least 2 bathrooms too. And on of the showers has to be HUGE. We want one of those rainforest showers.

So anyway, I'm house hunting. It's a blast!

Ouch.

On wednesday I hurt my pinky toe REAL bad. It was all bloody & swollen & gross. Poor me.

Yesterday I hurt my ankle somehow. It hurts the most if I point my toes, but it doesn't appear to be swollen. And yes, it is the same foot as the injured pinky toe.

Last night K and I had a fight. It wasn't too "serious" but it was long and loud and it brought up things that I don't like to think about. We made up and we are fine now, but it made me feel pretty icky last night. It's like I feel that we are in our own little world and nothing can touch us. But then, something does and it brings back all my fears. And truly, nothing did touch us. Our little world is fully in tact. But it's just that little knock at the door, the jehovah's witness that shows up during dinner. It reminds me that there is no steel dome around us.

Nevermind.

When I got home from work there were elementary age children playing in front of my building. I definitely need a kid who is at least 13.

Gifts, work and kids.

K got his xmas present from me yesterday. He really likes it, which is good 'cause it was REALLY expensive! LOL He is being very nice to me today, which is cute but not necessary. I don't want him to think I am buying his affections...although I wouldn't mind if he thought I was buying more sex-free weekends!!

Things are very slow for me at work and I have decided to just sit back and enjoy it. I have no billable hour quota this year, so I will let the hours go to those who need them and just chill out until January. Then maybe I can have a HUGE amount of work for the beginning of the year and I won't have to worry about it at the end of next year. It may put me on a decent cycle. Unfortunately, anytime I try to leave early that is when people call me. So I am diligently staying here until at least 4:30 everyday.

I may have mentioned to some of you that a lot of my friends are having babies in the next few months. Maybe the bad economy has led to more nights in?? I dunno. Anyway, it has encouraged my mom to try to convince me that I would be a good mother. It's cute to see her try, but I'm not biting. First of all, I really DO NOT want to be pregnant. And if I was, and I found out it was a boy, I would want to give it back. I know, it's wrong, but I'm being honest here.

Also, babies are cute for an hour or two, but after that they usually just gross me out. They are always dirty and sick. I just don't need that in my life.

I've decided that I would be perfectly fine with a daughter if she was at least 10 years old. That's when kids start to get interesting, ya know? I mean, I suppose they are not so bad after they start school. Maybe I could handle a 5 year-old. But really, you can't have a conversation with a kid until they're at least ten.

I think I would be a great mom to a kid around that age. And I think it would be fun. But I think that the infant and toddler years would just be so awful, that I would hate being a mom by the time it was about to get fun, ya know? So I guess what I'm saying is, if any of you have a girl that you get sick of in a few years, let me know. If your kid has a penis, you're on your own though.